Caster Semenyas comeback puts her on course for Rio gold

Since Caster Semenya emerged in 2009 sports law has adjusted its position and now the South African runner is posting remarkable times with the Olympics four months away

Caster Semenya took to the track three times on Saturday and with every stride suggested she was hurtling back towards the extraordinary. First she won the South African 400m title in 50.78 seconds, not only the fastest time in the world this year but a personal best by nearly two seconds. Then, after a 50minute rest, she coasted to the 800m title in 1:58.45, another worlds best in 2016. Finally, for good measure, she romped home in the 1500m.

It was the first time anyone had won three South African titles in a day but it was the manner of their achievement which left the deepest impression. Semenya barely broke sweat in each race until the home straight. As the TV commentator in the 800m, which she won by seven seconds, put it: My word this is something special. She is jogging! As the renowned South African sports scientist Ross Tucker put it: Its impossible to know how quickly she could have run but it looked so easy. She looked capable of running in the low 49-seconds for 400m and the 800m in 1:55 or faster.

Predictions are a dangerous business. But Semenya appears a red-hot favourite for 800m Olympic gold. And, if that happens, many of the controversies which raged in 2009 when her crushing world 800m title triumph was overshadowed by accusations and insinuations about her gender will again swirl around Rio like a tornado.

After that victory, by more than four seconds, the 18-year-olds world changed and largely for the worse. She was subject to gender tests which were never made public but were alleged, according to the Australian Daily Telegraph, to show she had no womb or ovaries but had internal testes. The IAAF, athletics governing body, was accused of violating her human rights, gross insensitivity and even racism. It insisted it was merely trying to ensure women with higher testosterone did not have an unfair advantage. Arguments flared, subsided and flared again; Semenya mostly suffered in silence.

Since then she has been very good rather than great. There were silver medals at the 2011 world championships and the 2012 Olympics, which may yet be upgraded given the Russian Mariya Savinova, who beat her both times, is facing a life ban. But after struggling at the world championships last year, Semenya has suddenly rediscovered her mojo and her motor. As Tucker says: She looks ridiculously lean and athletic. Shes a different athlete compared with last year.

So what has changed? It is probably down to not only her training but a decision in a Swiss courtroom. The fallout from Semenyas case in 2009 made the sporting authorities replace their gender testing policies with an upper limit for women athletes testosterone levels with anyone above it required to take hormones to lower them to more normal levels to compete. Yet in July the Court of Arbitration for Sport reversed that rule after considering the case of the Indian sprinter Dutee Chand, who was due to compete at the Commonwealth Games until discovered to have high testosterone.

Chands lawyers insisted she was not to blame for her genetic advantages, just as some basketball players cannot help being seven foot tall. They also claimed that the existing law was discriminatory against women, because men are not screened for high natural testosterone levels. However, as Dr Marjolaine Viret, a Swiss-based attorney in sports law who frequently deals with CAS arbitration explains: The decisive factor for the CAS panel was whether testosterone above the 10nmol/L threshold set by the IAAF gave female athletes a competitive advantage over their fellow competitors, which brought them within a range comparable to male athletes. Here the burden of proof was declared to be on the IAAF.

Given the lack of sufficient scientific evidence, the existing hyperandrogenism regulations law was suspended for two years allowing any female athlete on testosteronesuppressing medication to come off it. Tucker, for one, thinks CASs decision was wrong. The old rule was a workable compromise with a scientific basis, he says. It was an attempt to manage a difficult situation and CAS have effectively removed the management. Now theres no regulation and ultimately this changes the nature of womens sport.

He believes there is another flaw in its verdict. CAS were also saying that testosterone you inject is different from testosterone your body produces, which is ridiculous because its the same thing.

This, and other arguments around athletes rights, are often difficult to weigh up but for Tucker the key question is when does being an outlier become a problem and exceptional become unfair. Thats the crux of the issue. We say you can and should have certain advantages if you want to win but at some point the type of advantage you have, and its magnitude, must be checked. For a middleweight boxer, this happens at 75kg. But for men versus women, it happens somewhere. We just dont know where.

Meanwhile Semenyas gaze is firmly focused on better times ahead. I am a dreamer, she says. And what I dream of is to become Olympic champion, world champion, world record holder.

All three goals appear tantalisingly within her grasp, including Jarmila Kratochvilovas once seemingly impenetrable 800m world record of 1:53.28. Yet however bold her attempts to make history, one fears she will never completely outrun controversy.

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The return of Caster Semenya: Olympic favourite and ticking timebomb

The South African 800m runner is back and tipped to blow the field away in Rio, but those who have followed her career closely fear that the reaction to her success would reignite uncomfortable debates from the past

Its a ticking timebomb, Daniel Mothowagae says quietly on a winters night in Johannesburg as he anticipates the furore that is likely to explode when Caster Semenya runs in the Olympic Games. Apart from being described by many athletics specialists as an almost certain winner of the womens 800m in Rio, Semenya will suffer again as she is made to personify the complex issues surrounding sex verification in sport.

An hour earlier Mothowagae had filed his copy for the latest edition of The Sowetan newspaper. It had been a busy day with the announcement of the South African Olympic squad and, even as he relaxed into our conversation, Mothowagae spoke of his niggling worry. After a month of interviewing insiders and experts in this incendiary debate, I understood what he meant. The fierce opposition of opinion has made my head spin. Even the way in which each person describes Semenya is strikingly different.

Mothowagae, who is friendly with Semenya, sounds innocent when saying: Caster is just a tomboy. His fellow sportswriter, Wesley Botton, who has followed Semenya more closely than any reporter since her surprising emergence as a world champion in 2009, laments the fact she has become the poster girl for hyperandrogenism. Jean Verster, the athletes coach, stresses that Caster is a fantastic human being, a down-to-earth person and a great athlete who is like a mother to some of the girl athletes in our group. Meanwhile Ross Tucker, the eminent South African sports scientist, regrets the personalisation of hyperandrogenism, but he is dreading the Olympics because Semenya will win and the fallout will be deeply unpleasant.

These contrasting South African voices are united by shared conviction. They all believe Semenya is about to unleash the full force of her supreme ability and smash a world record that has stood for 33 years. But they also agree Semenya will be confronted by an invasive scrutiny on her alone even when there are open secrets that three of the Olympic 800m finalists might be intersex athletes. Verster, South Africas most accomplished running coach, concedes that even now, I am trying to protect Caster.

Semenyas 800m times

The debate around hyperandrogenism is as poignant as it is thorny. In simplistic summary it asks us to decide whose rights need to be protected most. Is it the small minority of women whose exceedingly high testosterone levels, which their bodies produce naturally, categorise them as intersex athletes? Should their human rights be ring-fenced so that, as is the case now following an overturned legal ruling, they are free to compete as women without being forced to take medication that suppresses their testosterone? Or should the overwhelming majority of female athletes be protected so they are not disadvantaged unfairly against faster and stronger intersex competitors?

We all differ in our opinions, Mothowagae says, but for me its a closed case. Caster is allowed to compete. Cas have made their ruling.

In July 2015 Cas, the Swiss-based Court of Arbitration for Sport, overturned the 2011 IAAF regulations that curbed testosterone levels in female athletes. They also suspended hyperandrogenism regulations for two years.

Caster always tells me that as long as the rules say she can compete she will run, Mothowagae says. Rio will test how much officials have learned from her ordeal at the 2009 world championships. If Caster could survive it as an 18-year-old she can face anything at 25. She is brave and she can look at the world. But the administrators dont seem to have any strategy even though we know Caster will be insulted again. She suffered psychological torture before but its building to a new level. The bomb is ticking.

That ticking has been intensified by Semenyas blistering form. After being in the doldrums for much of the period when she was compelled to take testosterone-suppressing medication, with other factors also bringing her down, Semenya has produced some astonishing performances in 2016. She won the 400m, the 800m and the 1500m in imperious style one unforgettable afternoon at the South African championships in April and then, this month, ran 1.55.33 in Monaco. It was the fastest womens 800m time since 2008.

She is proof of the benefit of testosterone to intersex athletes, Tucker argues. Having had the restriction removed she is now about six seconds faster than she had been the last two years.

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Caster Semenya has had a strong body of support in South Africa during a career that has seen her undergo a number of tough, unpleasant ordeals. Photograph: AFP/Getty Images

I have spoken to others who offer more personal reasons for Semenyas accelerated form. Botton recalls her breakout performance in July 2009 in Mauritius. She came out of the blue and ran 1.56, the sportswriter says. I tried to get hold of her and remember being very confused, man. Shes got such a deep voice, especially on the phone, I thought I was speaking to a man. I ended up Googling her and all this information came up. Until then I had no idea. There were blogs saying [wrongly] she was an hermaphrodite. I just remember that first interview being very difficult because, apart from being so young, she was very shy.

Was the teenager surprised by her time? No she knew she was capable of those times. Caster always runs within herself until its a major championship. Thats the only time she puts the hammer down.

Semenya put the hammer down in Berlin and became world champion in August 2009 after powering her way to victory in 1:55:45. The IAAF had already revealed the day before that Semenyas dramatic appearance on the world stage had nothing to do with doping. It was confirmed she had been subjected to gender verification tests in South Africa and Germany. An endocrinologist, a gynaecologist and a psychologist had tried to establish whether Semenya, who had lived her whole life as a girl, was actually a man. She was allowed to run in the final as the IAAF implied that further sex tests had been conducted.

Another 800m finalist, Italys Elisa Cusma, sneered at the silent new champion: She is a man. Athletics South Africa [ASA] meanwhile accused the IAAF of racism and denied having tricked Semenya into verification tests. Their disgraced president, Leonard Chuene, soon admitted he had lied while South Africas sports minister, Makhenkesi Stofile, warned of a third world war should Semenyas intersex status be confirmed.

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Semenya celebrates the 800m victory in the 2009 World Championships that saw her explode onto the global stage. Photograph: John Giles/PA

Ive been told that they made the decision to withdraw her before the heats, Botton says. But politicians forced her to run. They wanted that medal and she was the first black South African woman to win a world track title. So they threw Caster to the wolves.

Ockert de Villiers, now the chief Olympic writer for The Star in Johannesburg, remembers that in 2009 I was working for an Afrikaans tabloid called Sondag [Sunday] and they took a nasty angle with Caster. They called her a trassie Afrikaans slang for transvestite. The terminology is completely wrong when we know Casters condition.

Botton is plagued by other memories. Caster needed help and she was approached by people she shouldnt have trusted. Someone sold an article with Caster to You magazine where they dolled her up in a dress. You never see Caster in a dress. It was so awkward. Caster went off the rails. Over the next few years her performances dropped for a multitude of reasons. It wasnt just [testosterone-suppressing] medication. She was a long way from home a very rural community and thrust into this global limelight. Then she fell out with her old coach Michael Seme and, apparently, started partying hard in Pretoria. Michael said she was spending more time with her girlfriend than training.

She then went to Maria Mutola [the former Olympic 800m champion from Mozambique] and won silver at the London Olympics. But then Mutola had business problems in Mozambique and went home. Everything only improved dramatically when she moved to Potch to work with Jean Verster.

Potchefstroom is a mere 75 miles from Johannesburg. But it feels like another world. It is a small and secluded university town and an ideal training centre for international athletes. The chatty and intelligent Verster tells me of his past work with Kelly Holmes and the World Cup-winning Spanish football squad in Potch. He also explains how his working relationship with Semenya unfolded.

In October 2014 Caster called me and asked to join our training group. I said No problem but I didnt know what to expect. Id read about her knee injury and it was terrible to see her struggling in 2013 and 2014. She was limping when running. She was overweight and going through a hard period. It was a surprise when she phoned but what a pleasure. I was amazed by the person she is. She brought a new dynamic to the group always smiling and laughing even though she was so unfit. With Caster its been a long, hard and great journey to get healthy and in form.

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Semenya is now running faster than at any time in the last two years and it is inevitable that questions will be asked if this form continues. Photograph: Anesh Debiky/AFP/Getty Images

Verster transformed Semenyas persona. The often surly athlete, who had been burned so badly, seemed a new person. When we saw Caster the first time after she went to Potch she looked so much leaner and fitter and she was smiling, Botton remembers. I hadnt seen her smile in ages. She was no longer abrupt and abrasive. Sometimes she had been very rude to me but I took it with a pinch of salt because I knew what shed been through. She can be aggressive. She can swear at you. But since she moved to Jean she is so much happier. She looks liberated.

On 27 July 2015 Semenya was liberated further when Dutee Chand won her landmark case at Cas. The 19-year-old Indian sprinter was cleared to run competitively after her lawyers argued that her exclusion on the basis that sex-verification tests, relying primarily on levels of testosterone, were discriminatory. All regulations around hyperandrogenism were suspended until July 2017. Semenya was free to run naturally again without testosterone-suppressing medication.

When I suggest to Verster that Semenya must have been bolstered psychologically he insists: No, no. To be honest with you she didnt even know about the ruling. Shes very serious about her studies shes taking a sports science degree at Potch. Every minute she spends running, she spends five minutes studying.

Semenya attempts to keep a hostile world at bay so it is possible she had not followed the Cas ruling closely. But once she heard the news she must have discussed with Verster the fact she could stop taking restrictive medication which, for four years, had been legally prescriptive? Well, Caster does what she needs to do, Verster replies. Of course every now and then, as shes only human, she would go through patches of feeling tired. Some days we had to do a little less.

Verster wants to protect Semenya and so his avoidance of discussing her intersex status publicly is understandable. Marjolaine Viret, a Swiss-based attorney with specialist knowledge of Cas, is more helpful. To regulate something this complex you have to find some form of compromise and in these science-related domains its difficult to strike the right balance, she explains. In Dutee Chands case it came down to a question of whether the IAAF regulations had a sufficiently solid scientific foundation. The Cas panel defined the crucial factor as being whether intersex athletes would have sufficient advantages to outweigh any female characteristics and make them comparable to male-performance levels. They assigned the burden of proof to the IAAF and the party which has the burden of proof usually fails. When they assign the burden of proof they almost predetermine the legal outcome.

Did Viret agree with the ruling? From a legal perspective there were various issues I wouldnt agree with especially the interim ruling. They didnt put an end to the dispute. If the IAAF comes back with evidence in the next year there will be new proceedings. But its a question of proportionality and how you balance the interests of a minority with the majority interest.

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Dutee Chand will run at the Olympics after Cas issued a landmark ruling that challenged her suspension for hyperandrogenism. Photograph: Aijaz Rahi/AP

Tucker also disagrees with the Cas ruling from a scientific and sporting perspective. The fundamental issue is why do we have separate competition for women? If you answer truthfully its for fairness and equality. If you didnt have a separate competition women would have no chance to win anything in sport ever. Female competition exists to protect women.

Look at Paula Radcliffes record in the marathon. Its the strongest world record in womens sport compared to men. The average difference between mens and womens world records is 12% and Radcliffes is 10%. That record was set in 2003 and back then it was 4,300th on the all-time record for men. Its now outside the top 5,000.

That enormous difference is not just down to testosterone. But most of the distinctions between men and women lean muscle-mass, larger lung capacity, cardiac volume can be attributed to testosterone development. Ask parents. Up to the age of 11 and 12 their children can play together. But after that you cant have boys and girls playing sport together because puberty brings testosterone and testosterone brings differences.

People say: Oh, there is overlap between testosterone levels and there is a little. Some women are always faster than some men. But the best men are always faster than the best women. Testosterone is the least overlapping physical characteristic Ive ever encountered. Its the most obvious difference between men and women other than the gene.

With Semenya we know what happened. She went on testosterone-suppression and came off it and the transformation in performance is dramatic. Last year she was running 2:01. In Monaco she ran 1:55. In Rio it could be 1:53. Thats eight seconds. 7% in one season. If you didnt know the context you would say that person, without a shadow of doubt, is doping. But of course there should be no accusation of cheating against Semenya.

Verster presents a counter argument. People ask me why Caster didnt run well last year but she actually did if you consider everything. We were building nicely but in April she injured the same knee and couldnt train much in May and June. In July we said lets go to Europe and run two races. She surprised herself by qualifying for the world championships in Beijing.

She ran 1:59 in the heats but on semi-final day she felt awful because she hadnt done back-to-back sessions for a long time. She didnt go well and she was angry and wanted to redeem herself. On the same day as the final in Beijing, we did a session at the back of the stadium on the warm-up track. She was flying doing 400m in 55 seconds and feeling really good. I told her: If you had been in the final you would probably have won it.

Verster outlines Semenyas subsequent progress citing her injury free-happiness, a voracious appetite for hard work and the inspirational use of a male pacemaker to intensify her training. But how does he respond to Tuckers arguments? Ag, Verster says, using an Afrikaans verbal shrug, we dont bother with people like that. My opinion is theyre looking for sensation. Theyre probably looking to sell a new book. I know about [Tuckers writing] but I havent read it. I dont think Caster even knows about it. What he has to say with scientific evidence and other cases has nothing to do with us. We think everyone from the IOC down is happy. Were happy focusing on what we do best.

Tucker does not sound like a sensationalist to me so I ask Botton for his perspective. Ive been wrapping my head around this subject for so many years, he says. I hate the fact that, again, Caster is the poster girl for hyperandrogenism when other athletes are also affected. The intersex debate defines her whereas for me the most important thing is that Caster is a phenomenal athlete. When you watch her run and she opens up you forget the other issues. I get the same feeling watching Caster Semenya as I do with Usain Bolt. Shes that good.

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Semenya has been described as the poster girl for hyperandrogenism, and compared to Usain Bolt for her thrilling physical potential. Photograph: Tiziana Fabi/AFP/Getty Images

Botton and Tucker approach Semenya from contrasting positions but they both love athletics and were there on the momentous day this year when Semenya won three national titles in a single afternoon in Stellenbosch without looking like she was stretching herself. Near the end of the 800m, which she won by seven seconds, a television commentator exclaimed: My word, this is something special. She is jogging!

It was extraordinary, Tucker agrees. What she did in three hours was unbelievable.

Bottons response is almost identical. What she achieved that day was unbelievable. When Dominique Scott came over from the US to run the 1500m and Scott was in good shape I didnt see Caster having anything left. But she ran an incredible 400m, went under two minutes in the 800 and killed Scott in the 1500. Caster can do anything. Ill never doubt her again.

Verster is less incredulous. I half-expected it. Wed joke and shed say: Coach, Im doing all three and Id say, You cant She kept on hammering and eventually I conked in and said: OK, lets give it a go.

There is a chance that Semenya could also run the 400m in Rio. Verster is trying hard to dissuade her. From a coaching perspective I advised Caster months ago that we can double or even triple at the South African and African championships. But this is the Olympics. In my opinion we should just focus on the 800. Obviously she feels she should do the 400 as well. But the Olympics only happen every four years and we should not take it lightly. Well make a final decision soon but I hope its just the 800m.

Tucker has predicted the drama and vitriol that would erupt if Semenya persuades Verster and she proceeds to beat the USs most celebrated female runner, Allyson Felix, and wins the 400m before the 800m. But can a sceptic like him ever lose himself in Semenyas majestic running? Its a tough one. But I cant because knowledge gets in the way. The truth matters to me. If Semenya can eventually run 1:51 she is better than Bolt comparatively. But Bolt doesnt compete in a protected category for people with fast-twitch muscle fibres. He isnt subjected to the same classification issues as Semenya is by virtue of the fact were trying to protect women.

In regard to intersex athletes my position is that testosterone levels should be lowered to a level higher than the female average. The IAAF regulations were an acceptable compromise because, now, when I watch the 800m I think there are so many other athletes who have given their life to win this medal. Its not fair to them to have no regulations.

Three months ago Tucker conducted a fascinating interview with Joanna Harper who describes herself as a scientist first, an athlete second and a transgender person third. Harper made the startling claim that we might see an all-intersex podium in the 800 in Rio and I wouldnt be surprised to see as many as five intersex women in the eight-person final.

Does Tucker agree? I know four of them but I dont think the fourth got selected. Two of the others are an open secret in track-and-field. But its not fair for someone to be named an intersex athlete. What happened to Semenya in Berlin made it permissible but I suspect the athletes who win medals with this condition wont tell anyone. I dont know how many medallists in Rio will have an intersex condition. There might be half a dozen maybe 10 if we look to weightlifting or contact sports where testosterone has a big influence.

Botton admits his own conviction wavers. You want to support Caster but theres always this niggling thought. Is it fair for her to run? Im glad I dont have to make the decision, that Im not the IAAF or Cas, because I dont know where you draw the line. There are doctors and scientists, lawyers and administrators, and as long as they have said that, for the time being, she can run, I try to treat her just as an athlete.

Tucker suggests that, in regard to possible changes to the Cas ruling in 2017, the IAAF are hoping these athletes run as fast as possible and shoot the lights out. Then they can go back to court and say: Here you go heres your evidence. But Cas might keep the ruling to satisfy human rights and ethical elements.

The scientist sighs. Im actually dreading the Olympics. People only want to hear a good story so when Semenya wins gold the South African media will go crazy. If she breaks the world record, which I think she will, itll be even crazier. You can lie and say: Happy days. Lets celebrate our golden girl which the politicians and media want. Or you can be honest and principled and say: Actually, there are many things we need to address. Thats very unpopular. And then well have terrible online abuse of Caster from the other side.

Botton also stresses the likelihood of a world record. Caster used to hold off and try not to break records. But now she doesnt seem to care how much trouble it might cause. She wants Olympic gold and she wants to prove how good she is. If I had to put money on it Id say she is going to break that world record and it will cause all kinds of problems. Can you imagine how fast she can run if she really lets rip?

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Semenya finished well clear of the pack in Rome earlier this summer, fuelling thoughts that a world record-breaking Olympic win is possible. Photograph: Gregorio Borgia/AP

Verster is clear when asked if he agrees Semenya could obliterate Jarmila Kratochvilovas world record of 1:53:28 set in July 1983? Yes I do. Of course I believe Caster can do it. But our main goal is to win gold and even though Caster ran the fastest time in eight years, in Monaco, on the all-time list its not even in the top 20. We talk about taking baby steps.

Semenyas personal best is the 22nd fastest-ever womens 800m but most of those quicker times were fuelled by doping. The South African is running clean but, because of her natural testosterone levels, she is running towards trouble.

Ja, Verster agrees, but Caster has a blunt way of speaking. She says: We do our thing stuff the rest. In Rio, we will go into shutdown. I believe its important to get to the village as late as possible. Well keep her away from everything.

Does Verster expect a happy outcome, on and off the track, for Semenya? Absolutely. We wouldnt be doing this if we didnt believe that.

Back in Johannesburg, on a cold night, Daniel Mothowagae speaks warmly of his friendship with Semenya. Caster has come a long way. We all have. Most South Africans want to support Caster. In our community we know Caster is just a tomboy. But people are excited because every time Caster goes on the track she wins. They dont care what science says about her.

Mothowagae pauses when asked if he also imagines a happy ending for his favourite athlete? Shew, he eventually exclaims. Its a difficult question. But, yes, I hope it will be a happy ending to a controversial career in inverted commas. I also think it is one that the world will debate for years to come because Caster Semenya is a gamechanger.

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The ignorance aimed at Caster Semenya flies in the face of the Olympic spirit | Katrina Karkazis

In pressing their case on hyperandrogenic athletes the IAAF have ensured hostile scrutiny will always fall on women who defy norms imposed by the powerful

The image that will stay with me long after the last competitor leaves Rio this week is a decidedly un-Olympic one. Caster Semenya, the womens 800m gold medallist, extends her arms to fellow competitors Melissa Bishop of Canada and Lynsey Sharp of Great Britain. Sharp, who came in sixth, holds a tearful Bishop, who took fourth, in a tight embrace. Rather than respond to Semenya they remain in their embrace ignoring her. The photo was a sad endnote to one of the most vitriolic media and social media uproars I can recall, one in which the athletes were the casualties. And the International Association of Athletics Federations (IAAF) did nothing to quell it.

In the month leading up the to the race, a cacophonous and spurious alarm sounded unfairly on Semenyas right to compete. She endured relentless hostility and a deluge of cruel harassment from both the traditional and online media, something she has been withstanding for the seven years since the IAAF confirmed it was investigating her. It was reported she was even provided with a security team in Rio due to concerns the hostility might turn violent.

Semenyas athleticism was attributed to a single molecule testosterone as though it alone earned her the gold, undermining at once her skill, preparation and achievement. South Africa as a nation has pushed back with #handsoffcaster, coming to the defence of one of the worlds most scrutinised athletes despite her having done nothing wrong and competing with the support of the court of arbitration for sport (Cas).

It didnt have to be this way. Instead of quashing the media storm, the IAAF aggravated it, continuing to fail in its articulation and management of the issue. On the eve of the Olympics, IAAF president Sebastian Coe said they would challenge the currently suspended policy that places a limit on a female athletes natural testosterone levels.

He then issued an additional 11th-hour avowal just before the 800m finals, which seemed to be timed specifically to cast doubt on Semenyas right to compete. He immediately followed this statement with a halfhearted and telling reminder that these are human beings, knowing full well that his comments would throw into question not only Semenyas participation but others too. A tinderbox was left smouldering, one breath of accusation was all that was needed to ignite the debate once more. Coe fomented an atmosphere that divided women athletes from their peers and even pitted them against each other.

So its no surprise that athletes such as Sharp, who have worked just as hard and sacrificed just as much, may feel frustrated and denied even though they werent, and how, in anger, grace failed them. In an outsized display of entitlement, the women made comments that called into question and eclipsed the entire podium, such as Polands Joanna Jozwik, who finished fifth between Bishop and Sharp, saying: Im glad Im the first European, the second white to cross the line. Its unsporting behaviour they will hopefully look back on and think better of.

Its impossible not to note the optics of this controversy the three black women from sub-Saharan Africa ebullient on the podium and the three white global north women feeling they should be there instead because they signify a great deal. Their polarised perspectives stem from the policy regarding hyperandrogenism and the asymmetry regarding who it burdens and who it benefits.

To be clear: the policy harms all women athletes. But its no secret that it disproportionately harms black and brown women from the global south. Women from the global north benefit from a policy in which the prevailing notion of fairness doesnt target them. Sharps comment about relying on the people at the top sorting it out further divulged as much.

The we here is key. For Semenya and others, the people at the top are not initiating policies that reflect their interests. Its a familiar pattern where those with power write policies benefiting the more powerful. Likewise when Sharp said, We know how each other feel, its easy to see how the Europeans awareness of each others views can reinforce feelings of injustice. The problem is that they dont know how the athletes being scrutinised feel and what seems unfair to them.

It is also clear the increased scrutiny is reserved for women perceived as not feminine enough, which is the bedrock of what is in the policies. For example, it is stated that: The individuals concerned often display masculine traits and have an uncommon athletic capacity in relation to their fellow female competitors. Gender variance has always incited scrutiny, and this scrutiny is often racialised. Living outside of these normative racialised gendered expectations means coming under scrutiny and probing in ways invisible to the institutions and individuals doing the looking.

This was not lost on many observers, including Semenya, who said: It is not about discriminating people and looking at people in terms of how they look, how they speak and how they have run Its not about being masculine. Its about sports.

If this were a simple case of sour grapes it would fade with few caring. But the stakes are far higher. The IAAF is going back to Cas to defend a policy that it accepts discriminates against women. A policy whose explicit aim is to make women slower. That benefits no one.

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Caster Semenyas comeback puts her on course for Rio gold

Since Caster Semenya emerged in 2009 sports law has adjusted its position and now the South African runner is posting remarkable times with the Olympics four months away

Caster Semenya took to the track three times on Saturday and with every stride suggested she was hurtling back towards the extraordinary. First she won the South African 400m title in 50.78 seconds, not only the fastest time in the world this year but a personal best by nearly two seconds. Then, after a 50minute rest, she coasted to the 800m title in 1:58.45, another worlds best in 2016. Finally, for good measure, she romped home in the 1500m.

It was the first time anyone had won three South African titles in a day but it was the manner of their achievement which left the deepest impression. Semenya barely broke sweat in each race until the home straight. As the TV commentator in the 800m, which she won by seven seconds, put it: My word this is something special. She is jogging! As the renowned South African sports scientist Ross Tucker put it: Its impossible to know how quickly she could have run but it looked so easy. She looked capable of running in the low 49-seconds for 400m and the 800m in 1:55 or faster.

Predictions are a dangerous business. But Semenya appears a red-hot favourite for 800m Olympic gold. And, if that happens, many of the controversies which raged in 2009 when her crushing world 800m title triumph was overshadowed by accusations and insinuations about her gender will again swirl around Rio like a tornado.

After that victory, by more than four seconds, the 18-year-olds world changed and largely for the worse. She was subject to gender tests which were never made public but were alleged, according to the Australian Daily Telegraph, to show she had no womb or ovaries but had internal testes. The IAAF, athletics governing body, was accused of violating her human rights, gross insensitivity and even racism. It insisted it was merely trying to ensure women with higher testosterone did not have an unfair advantage. Arguments flared, subsided and flared again; Semenya mostly suffered in silence.

Since then she has been very good rather than great. There were silver medals at the 2011 world championships and the 2012 Olympics, which may yet be upgraded given the Russian Mariya Savinova, who beat her both times, is facing a life ban. But after struggling at the world championships last year, Semenya has suddenly rediscovered her mojo and her motor. As Tucker says: She looks ridiculously lean and athletic. Shes a different athlete compared with last year.

So what has changed? It is probably down to not only her training but a decision in a Swiss courtroom. The fallout from Semenyas case in 2009 made the sporting authorities replace their gender testing policies with an upper limit for women athletes testosterone levels with anyone above it required to take hormones to lower them to more normal levels to compete. Yet in July the Court of Arbitration for Sport reversed that rule after considering the case of the Indian sprinter Dutee Chand, who was due to compete at the Commonwealth Games until discovered to have high testosterone.

Chands lawyers insisted she was not to blame for her genetic advantages, just as some basketball players cannot help being seven foot tall. They also claimed that the existing law was discriminatory against women, because men are not screened for high natural testosterone levels. However, as Dr Marjolaine Viret, a Swiss-based attorney in sports law who frequently deals with CAS arbitration explains: The decisive factor for the CAS panel was whether testosterone above the 10nmol/L threshold set by the IAAF gave female athletes a competitive advantage over their fellow competitors, which brought them within a range comparable to male athletes. Here the burden of proof was declared to be on the IAAF.

Given the lack of sufficient scientific evidence, the existing hyperandrogenism regulations law was suspended for two years allowing any female athlete on testosteronesuppressing medication to come off it. Tucker, for one, thinks CASs decision was wrong. The old rule was a workable compromise with a scientific basis, he says. It was an attempt to manage a difficult situation and CAS have effectively removed the management. Now theres no regulation and ultimately this changes the nature of womens sport.

He believes there is another flaw in its verdict. CAS were also saying that testosterone you inject is different from testosterone your body produces, which is ridiculous because its the same thing.

This, and other arguments around athletes rights, are often difficult to weigh up but for Tucker the key question is when does being an outlier become a problem and exceptional become unfair. Thats the crux of the issue. We say you can and should have certain advantages if you want to win but at some point the type of advantage you have, and its magnitude, must be checked. For a middleweight boxer, this happens at 75kg. But for men versus women, it happens somewhere. We just dont know where.

Meanwhile Semenyas gaze is firmly focused on better times ahead. I am a dreamer, she says. And what I dream of is to become Olympic champion, world champion, world record holder.

All three goals appear tantalisingly within her grasp, including Jarmila Kratochvilovas once seemingly impenetrable 800m world record of 1:53.28. Yet however bold her attempts to make history, one fears she will never completely outrun controversy.

Read more: http://www.theguardian.com/sport/2016/apr/17/caster-semenya-comeback-rio-olympics-gold

The return of Caster Semenya: Olympic favourite and ticking timebomb

The South African 800m runner is back and tipped to blow the field away in Rio, but those who have followed her career closely fear that the reaction to her success would reignite uncomfortable debates from the past

Its a ticking timebomb, Daniel Mothowagae says quietly on a winters night in Johannesburg as he anticipates the furore that is likely to explode when Caster Semenya runs in the Olympic Games. Apart from being described by many athletics specialists as an almost certain winner of the womens 800m in Rio, Semenya will suffer again as she is made to personify the complex issues surrounding sex verification in sport.

An hour earlier Mothowagae had filed his copy for the latest edition of The Sowetan newspaper. It had been a busy day with the announcement of the South African Olympic squad and, even as he relaxed into our conversation, Mothowagae spoke of his niggling worry. After a month of interviewing insiders and experts in this incendiary debate, I understood what he meant. The fierce opposition of opinion has made my head spin. Even the way in which each person describes Semenya is strikingly different.

Mothowagae, who is friendly with Semenya, sounds innocent when saying: Caster is just a tomboy. His fellow sportswriter, Wesley Botton, who has followed Semenya more closely than any reporter since her surprising emergence as a world champion in 2009, laments the fact she has become the poster girl for hyperandrogenism. Jean Verster, the athletes coach, stresses that Caster is a fantastic human being, a down-to-earth person and a great athlete who is like a mother to some of the girl athletes in our group. Meanwhile Ross Tucker, the eminent South African sports scientist, regrets the personalisation of hyperandrogenism, but he is dreading the Olympics because Semenya will win and the fallout will be deeply unpleasant.

These contrasting South African voices are united by shared conviction. They all believe Semenya is about to unleash the full force of her supreme ability and smash a world record that has stood for 33 years. But they also agree Semenya will be confronted by an invasive scrutiny on her alone even when there are open secrets that three of the Olympic 800m finalists might be intersex athletes. Verster, South Africas most accomplished running coach, concedes that even now, I am trying to protect Caster.

Semenyas 800m times

The debate around hyperandrogenism is as poignant as it is thorny. In simplistic summary it asks us to decide whose rights need to be protected most. Is it the small minority of women whose exceedingly high testosterone levels, which their bodies produce naturally, categorise them as intersex athletes? Should their human rights be ring-fenced so that, as is the case now following an overturned legal ruling, they are free to compete as women without being forced to take medication that suppresses their testosterone? Or should the overwhelming majority of female athletes be protected so they are not disadvantaged unfairly against faster and stronger intersex competitors?

We all differ in our opinions, Mothowagae says, but for me its a closed case. Caster is allowed to compete. Cas have made their ruling.

In July 2015 Cas, the Swiss-based Court of Arbitration for Sport, overturned the 2011 IAAF regulations that curbed testosterone levels in female athletes. They also suspended hyperandrogenism regulations for two years.

Caster always tells me that as long as the rules say she can compete she will run, Mothowagae says. Rio will test how much officials have learned from her ordeal at the 2009 world championships. If Caster could survive it as an 18-year-old she can face anything at 25. She is brave and she can look at the world. But the administrators dont seem to have any strategy even though we know Caster will be insulted again. She suffered psychological torture before but its building to a new level. The bomb is ticking.

That ticking has been intensified by Semenyas blistering form. After being in the doldrums for much of the period when she was compelled to take testosterone-suppressing medication, with other factors also bringing her down, Semenya has produced some astonishing performances in 2016. She won the 400m, the 800m and the 1500m in imperious style one unforgettable afternoon at the South African championships in April and then, this month, ran 1.55.33 in Monaco. It was the fastest womens 800m time since 2008.

She is proof of the benefit of testosterone to intersex athletes, Tucker argues. Having had the restriction removed she is now about six seconds faster than she had been the last two years.

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Caster Semenya has had a strong body of support in South Africa during a career that has seen her undergo a number of tough, unpleasant ordeals. Photograph: AFP/Getty Images

I have spoken to others who offer more personal reasons for Semenyas accelerated form. Botton recalls her breakout performance in July 2009 in Mauritius. She came out of the blue and ran 1.56, the sportswriter says. I tried to get hold of her and remember being very confused, man. Shes got such a deep voice, especially on the phone, I thought I was speaking to a man. I ended up Googling her and all this information came up. Until then I had no idea. There were blogs saying [wrongly] she was an hermaphrodite. I just remember that first interview being very difficult because, apart from being so young, she was very shy.

Was the teenager surprised by her time? No she knew she was capable of those times. Caster always runs within herself until its a major championship. Thats the only time she puts the hammer down.

Semenya put the hammer down in Berlin and became world champion in August 2009 after powering her way to victory in 1:55:45. The IAAF had already revealed the day before that Semenyas dramatic appearance on the world stage had nothing to do with doping. It was confirmed she had been subjected to gender verification tests in South Africa and Germany. An endocrinologist, a gynaecologist and a psychologist had tried to establish whether Semenya, who had lived her whole life as a girl, was actually a man. She was allowed to run in the final as the IAAF implied that further sex tests had been conducted.

Another 800m finalist, Italys Elisa Cusma, sneered at the silent new champion: She is a man. Athletics South Africa [ASA] meanwhile accused the IAAF of racism and denied having tricked Semenya into verification tests. Their disgraced president, Leonard Chuene, soon admitted he had lied while South Africas sports minister, Makhenkesi Stofile, warned of a third world war should Semenyas intersex status be confirmed.

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Semenya celebrates the 800m victory in the 2009 World Championships that saw her explode onto the global stage. Photograph: John Giles/PA

Ive been told that they made the decision to withdraw her before the heats, Botton says. But politicians forced her to run. They wanted that medal and she was the first black South African woman to win a world track title. So they threw Caster to the wolves.

Ockert de Villiers, now the chief Olympic writer for The Star in Johannesburg, remembers that in 2009 I was working for an Afrikaans tabloid called Sondag [Sunday] and they took a nasty angle with Caster. They called her a trassie Afrikaans slang for transvestite. The terminology is completely wrong when we know Casters condition.

Botton is plagued by other memories. Caster needed help and she was approached by people she shouldnt have trusted. Someone sold an article with Caster to You magazine where they dolled her up in a dress. You never see Caster in a dress. It was so awkward. Caster went off the rails. Over the next few years her performances dropped for a multitude of reasons. It wasnt just [testosterone-suppressing] medication. She was a long way from home a very rural community and thrust into this global limelight. Then she fell out with her old coach Michael Seme and, apparently, started partying hard in Pretoria. Michael said she was spending more time with her girlfriend than training.

She then went to Maria Mutola [the former Olympic 800m champion from Mozambique] and won silver at the London Olympics. But then Mutola had business problems in Mozambique and went home. Everything only improved dramatically when she moved to Potch to work with Jean Verster.

Potchefstroom is a mere 75 miles from Johannesburg. But it feels like another world. It is a small and secluded university town and an ideal training centre for international athletes. The chatty and intelligent Verster tells me of his past work with Kelly Holmes and the World Cup-winning Spanish football squad in Potch. He also explains how his working relationship with Semenya unfolded.

In October 2014 Caster called me and asked to join our training group. I said No problem but I didnt know what to expect. Id read about her knee injury and it was terrible to see her struggling in 2013 and 2014. She was limping when running. She was overweight and going through a hard period. It was a surprise when she phoned but what a pleasure. I was amazed by the person she is. She brought a new dynamic to the group always smiling and laughing even though she was so unfit. With Caster its been a long, hard and great journey to get healthy and in form.

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Semenya is now running faster than at any time in the last two years and it is inevitable that questions will be asked if this form continues. Photograph: Anesh Debiky/AFP/Getty Images

Verster transformed Semenyas persona. The often surly athlete, who had been burned so badly, seemed a new person. When we saw Caster the first time after she went to Potch she looked so much leaner and fitter and she was smiling, Botton remembers. I hadnt seen her smile in ages. She was no longer abrupt and abrasive. Sometimes she had been very rude to me but I took it with a pinch of salt because I knew what shed been through. She can be aggressive. She can swear at you. But since she moved to Jean she is so much happier. She looks liberated.

On 27 July 2015 Semenya was liberated further when Dutee Chand won her landmark case at Cas. The 19-year-old Indian sprinter was cleared to run competitively after her lawyers argued that her exclusion on the basis that sex-verification tests, relying primarily on levels of testosterone, were discriminatory. All regulations around hyperandrogenism were suspended until July 2017. Semenya was free to run naturally again without testosterone-suppressing medication.

When I suggest to Verster that Semenya must have been bolstered psychologically he insists: No, no. To be honest with you she didnt even know about the ruling. Shes very serious about her studies shes taking a sports science degree at Potch. Every minute she spends running, she spends five minutes studying.

Semenya attempts to keep a hostile world at bay so it is possible she had not followed the Cas ruling closely. But once she heard the news she must have discussed with Verster the fact she could stop taking restrictive medication which, for four years, had been legally prescriptive? Well, Caster does what she needs to do, Verster replies. Of course every now and then, as shes only human, she would go through patches of feeling tired. Some days we had to do a little less.

Verster wants to protect Semenya and so his avoidance of discussing her intersex status publicly is understandable. Marjolaine Viret, a Swiss-based attorney with specialist knowledge of Cas, is more helpful. To regulate something this complex you have to find some form of compromise and in these science-related domains its difficult to strike the right balance, she explains. In Dutee Chands case it came down to a question of whether the IAAF regulations had a sufficiently solid scientific foundation. The Cas panel defined the crucial factor as being whether intersex athletes would have sufficient advantages to outweigh any female characteristics and make them comparable to male-performance levels. They assigned the burden of proof to the IAAF and the party which has the burden of proof usually fails. When they assign the burden of proof they almost predetermine the legal outcome.

Did Viret agree with the ruling? From a legal perspective there were various issues I wouldnt agree with especially the interim ruling. They didnt put an end to the dispute. If the IAAF comes back with evidence in the next year there will be new proceedings. But its a question of proportionality and how you balance the interests of a minority with the majority interest.

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Dutee Chand will run at the Olympics after Cas issued a landmark ruling that challenged her suspension for hyperandrogenism. Photograph: Aijaz Rahi/AP

Tucker also disagrees with the Cas ruling from a scientific and sporting perspective. The fundamental issue is why do we have separate competition for women? If you answer truthfully its for fairness and equality. If you didnt have a separate competition women would have no chance to win anything in sport ever. Female competition exists to protect women.

Look at Paula Radcliffes record in the marathon. Its the strongest world record in womens sport compared to men. The average difference between mens and womens world records is 12% and Radcliffes is 10%. That record was set in 2003 and back then it was 4,300th on the all-time record for men. Its now outside the top 5,000.

That enormous difference is not just down to testosterone. But most of the distinctions between men and women lean muscle-mass, larger lung capacity, cardiac volume can be attributed to testosterone development. Ask parents. Up to the age of 11 and 12 their children can play together. But after that you cant have boys and girls playing sport together because puberty brings testosterone and testosterone brings differences.

People say: Oh, there is overlap between testosterone levels and there is a little. Some women are always faster than some men. But the best men are always faster than the best women. Testosterone is the least overlapping physical characteristic Ive ever encountered. Its the most obvious difference between men and women other than the gene.

With Semenya we know what happened. She went on testosterone-suppression and came off it and the transformation in performance is dramatic. Last year she was running 2:01. In Monaco she ran 1:55. In Rio it could be 1:53. Thats eight seconds. 7% in one season. If you didnt know the context you would say that person, without a shadow of doubt, is doping. But of course there should be no accusation of cheating against Semenya.

Verster presents a counter argument. People ask me why Caster didnt run well last year but she actually did if you consider everything. We were building nicely but in April she injured the same knee and couldnt train much in May and June. In July we said lets go to Europe and run two races. She surprised herself by qualifying for the world championships in Beijing.

She ran 1:59 in the heats but on semi-final day she felt awful because she hadnt done back-to-back sessions for a long time. She didnt go well and she was angry and wanted to redeem herself. On the same day as the final in Beijing, we did a session at the back of the stadium on the warm-up track. She was flying doing 400m in 55 seconds and feeling really good. I told her: If you had been in the final you would probably have won it.

Verster outlines Semenyas subsequent progress citing her injury free-happiness, a voracious appetite for hard work and the inspirational use of a male pacemaker to intensify her training. But how does he respond to Tuckers arguments? Ag, Verster says, using an Afrikaans verbal shrug, we dont bother with people like that. My opinion is theyre looking for sensation. Theyre probably looking to sell a new book. I know about [Tuckers writing] but I havent read it. I dont think Caster even knows about it. What he has to say with scientific evidence and other cases has nothing to do with us. We think everyone from the IOC down is happy. Were happy focusing on what we do best.

Tucker does not sound like a sensationalist to me so I ask Botton for his perspective. Ive been wrapping my head around this subject for so many years, he says. I hate the fact that, again, Caster is the poster girl for hyperandrogenism when other athletes are also affected. The intersex debate defines her whereas for me the most important thing is that Caster is a phenomenal athlete. When you watch her run and she opens up you forget the other issues. I get the same feeling watching Caster Semenya as I do with Usain Bolt. Shes that good.

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Semenya has been described as the poster girl for hyperandrogenism, and compared to Usain Bolt for her thrilling physical potential. Photograph: Tiziana Fabi/AFP/Getty Images

Botton and Tucker approach Semenya from contrasting positions but they both love athletics and were there on the momentous day this year when Semenya won three national titles in a single afternoon in Stellenbosch without looking like she was stretching herself. Near the end of the 800m, which she won by seven seconds, a television commentator exclaimed: My word, this is something special. She is jogging!

It was extraordinary, Tucker agrees. What she did in three hours was unbelievable.

Bottons response is almost identical. What she achieved that day was unbelievable. When Dominique Scott came over from the US to run the 1500m and Scott was in good shape I didnt see Caster having anything left. But she ran an incredible 400m, went under two minutes in the 800 and killed Scott in the 1500. Caster can do anything. Ill never doubt her again.

Verster is less incredulous. I half-expected it. Wed joke and shed say: Coach, Im doing all three and Id say, You cant She kept on hammering and eventually I conked in and said: OK, lets give it a go.

There is a chance that Semenya could also run the 400m in Rio. Verster is trying hard to dissuade her. From a coaching perspective I advised Caster months ago that we can double or even triple at the South African and African championships. But this is the Olympics. In my opinion we should just focus on the 800. Obviously she feels she should do the 400 as well. But the Olympics only happen every four years and we should not take it lightly. Well make a final decision soon but I hope its just the 800m.

Tucker has predicted the drama and vitriol that would erupt if Semenya persuades Verster and she proceeds to beat the USs most celebrated female runner, Allyson Felix, and wins the 400m before the 800m. But can a sceptic like him ever lose himself in Semenyas majestic running? Its a tough one. But I cant because knowledge gets in the way. The truth matters to me. If Semenya can eventually run 1:51 she is better than Bolt comparatively. But Bolt doesnt compete in a protected category for people with fast-twitch muscle fibres. He isnt subjected to the same classification issues as Semenya is by virtue of the fact were trying to protect women.

In regard to intersex athletes my position is that testosterone levels should be lowered to a level higher than the female average. The IAAF regulations were an acceptable compromise because, now, when I watch the 800m I think there are so many other athletes who have given their life to win this medal. Its not fair to them to have no regulations.

Three months ago Tucker conducted a fascinating interview with Joanna Harper who describes herself as a scientist first, an athlete second and a transgender person third. Harper made the startling claim that we might see an all-intersex podium in the 800 in Rio and I wouldnt be surprised to see as many as five intersex women in the eight-person final.

Does Tucker agree? I know four of them but I dont think the fourth got selected. Two of the others are an open secret in track-and-field. But its not fair for someone to be named an intersex athlete. What happened to Semenya in Berlin made it permissible but I suspect the athletes who win medals with this condition wont tell anyone. I dont know how many medallists in Rio will have an intersex condition. There might be half a dozen maybe 10 if we look to weightlifting or contact sports where testosterone has a big influence.

Botton admits his own conviction wavers. You want to support Caster but theres always this niggling thought. Is it fair for her to run? Im glad I dont have to make the decision, that Im not the IAAF or Cas, because I dont know where you draw the line. There are doctors and scientists, lawyers and administrators, and as long as they have said that, for the time being, she can run, I try to treat her just as an athlete.

Tucker suggests that, in regard to possible changes to the Cas ruling in 2017, the IAAF are hoping these athletes run as fast as possible and shoot the lights out. Then they can go back to court and say: Here you go heres your evidence. But Cas might keep the ruling to satisfy human rights and ethical elements.

The scientist sighs. Im actually dreading the Olympics. People only want to hear a good story so when Semenya wins gold the South African media will go crazy. If she breaks the world record, which I think she will, itll be even crazier. You can lie and say: Happy days. Lets celebrate our golden girl which the politicians and media want. Or you can be honest and principled and say: Actually, there are many things we need to address. Thats very unpopular. And then well have terrible online abuse of Caster from the other side.

Botton also stresses the likelihood of a world record. Caster used to hold off and try not to break records. But now she doesnt seem to care how much trouble it might cause. She wants Olympic gold and she wants to prove how good she is. If I had to put money on it Id say she is going to break that world record and it will cause all kinds of problems. Can you imagine how fast she can run if she really lets rip?

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Semenya finished well clear of the pack in Rome earlier this summer, fuelling thoughts that a world record-breaking Olympic win is possible. Photograph: Gregorio Borgia/AP

Verster is clear when asked if he agrees Semenya could obliterate Jarmila Kratochvilovas world record of 1:53:28 set in July 1983? Yes I do. Of course I believe Caster can do it. But our main goal is to win gold and even though Caster ran the fastest time in eight years, in Monaco, on the all-time list its not even in the top 20. We talk about taking baby steps.

Semenyas personal best is the 22nd fastest-ever womens 800m but most of those quicker times were fuelled by doping. The South African is running clean but, because of her natural testosterone levels, she is running towards trouble.

Ja, Verster agrees, but Caster has a blunt way of speaking. She says: We do our thing stuff the rest. In Rio, we will go into shutdown. I believe its important to get to the village as late as possible. Well keep her away from everything.

Does Verster expect a happy outcome, on and off the track, for Semenya? Absolutely. We wouldnt be doing this if we didnt believe that.

Back in Johannesburg, on a cold night, Daniel Mothowagae speaks warmly of his friendship with Semenya. Caster has come a long way. We all have. Most South Africans want to support Caster. In our community we know Caster is just a tomboy. But people are excited because every time Caster goes on the track she wins. They dont care what science says about her.

Mothowagae pauses when asked if he also imagines a happy ending for his favourite athlete? Shew, he eventually exclaims. Its a difficult question. But, yes, I hope it will be a happy ending to a controversial career in inverted commas. I also think it is one that the world will debate for years to come because Caster Semenya is a gamechanger.

Read more: https://www.theguardian.com/sport/2016/jul/29/the-return-of-caster-semenya-olympic-favourite-and-ticking-timebomb

The ignorance aimed at Caster Semenya flies in the face of the Olympic spirit | Katrina Karkazis

In pressing their case on hyperandrogenic athletes the IAAF have ensured hostile scrutiny will always fall on women who defy norms imposed by the powerful

The image that will stay with me long after the last competitor leaves Rio this week is a decidedly un-Olympic one. Caster Semenya, the womens 800m gold medallist, extends her arms to fellow competitors Melissa Bishop of Canada and Lynsey Sharp of Great Britain. Sharp, who came in sixth, holds a tearful Bishop, who took fourth, in a tight embrace. Rather than respond to Semenya they remain in their embrace ignoring her. The photo was a sad endnote to one of the most vitriolic media and social media uproars I can recall, one in which the athletes were the casualties. And the International Association of Athletics Federations (IAAF) did nothing to quell it.

In the month leading up the to the race, a cacophonous and spurious alarm sounded unfairly on Semenyas right to compete. She endured relentless hostility and a deluge of cruel harassment from both the traditional and online media, something she has been withstanding for the seven years since the IAAF confirmed it was investigating her. It was reported she was even provided with a security team in Rio due to concerns the hostility might turn violent.

Semenyas athleticism was attributed to a single molecule testosterone as though it alone earned her the gold, undermining at once her skill, preparation and achievement. South Africa as a nation has pushed back with #handsoffcaster, coming to the defence of one of the worlds most scrutinised athletes despite her having done nothing wrong and competing with the support of the court of arbitration for sport (Cas).

It didnt have to be this way. Instead of quashing the media storm, the IAAF aggravated it, continuing to fail in its articulation and management of the issue. On the eve of the Olympics, IAAF president Sebastian Coe said they would challenge the currently suspended policy that places a limit on a female athletes natural testosterone levels.

He then issued an additional 11th-hour avowal just before the 800m finals, which seemed to be timed specifically to cast doubt on Semenyas right to compete. He immediately followed this statement with a halfhearted and telling reminder that these are human beings, knowing full well that his comments would throw into question not only Semenyas participation but others too. A tinderbox was left smouldering, one breath of accusation was all that was needed to ignite the debate once more. Coe fomented an atmosphere that divided women athletes from their peers and even pitted them against each other.

So its no surprise that athletes such as Sharp, who have worked just as hard and sacrificed just as much, may feel frustrated and denied even though they werent, and how, in anger, grace failed them. In an outsized display of entitlement, the women made comments that called into question and eclipsed the entire podium, such as Polands Joanna Jozwik, who finished fifth between Bishop and Sharp, saying: Im glad Im the first European, the second white to cross the line. Its unsporting behaviour they will hopefully look back on and think better of.

Its impossible not to note the optics of this controversy the three black women from sub-Saharan Africa ebullient on the podium and the three white global north women feeling they should be there instead because they signify a great deal. Their polarised perspectives stem from the policy regarding hyperandrogenism and the asymmetry regarding who it burdens and who it benefits.

To be clear: the policy harms all women athletes. But its no secret that it disproportionately harms black and brown women from the global south. Women from the global north benefit from a policy in which the prevailing notion of fairness doesnt target them. Sharps comment about relying on the people at the top sorting it out further divulged as much.

The we here is key. For Semenya and others, the people at the top are not initiating policies that reflect their interests. Its a familiar pattern where those with power write policies benefiting the more powerful. Likewise when Sharp said, We know how each other feel, its easy to see how the Europeans awareness of each others views can reinforce feelings of injustice. The problem is that they dont know how the athletes being scrutinised feel and what seems unfair to them.

It is also clear the increased scrutiny is reserved for women perceived as not feminine enough, which is the bedrock of what is in the policies. For example, it is stated that: The individuals concerned often display masculine traits and have an uncommon athletic capacity in relation to their fellow female competitors. Gender variance has always incited scrutiny, and this scrutiny is often racialised. Living outside of these normative racialised gendered expectations means coming under scrutiny and probing in ways invisible to the institutions and individuals doing the looking.

This was not lost on many observers, including Semenya, who said: It is not about discriminating people and looking at people in terms of how they look, how they speak and how they have run Its not about being masculine. Its about sports.

If this were a simple case of sour grapes it would fade with few caring. But the stakes are far higher. The IAAF is going back to Cas to defend a policy that it accepts discriminates against women. A policy whose explicit aim is to make women slower. That benefits no one.

Read more: https://www.theguardian.com/commentisfree/2016/aug/23/caster-semenya-olympic-spirit-iaaf-athletes-women

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My name is Noah and on May 18 2011, I had a rare reaction to a vaccine called VIVITROL and consequently spiraled into a major, agitated, suicidal depression with depersonalization. I lost 25 lbs in 4 weeks and was in full panic or near panic for 8 weeks straight mixed with the darkest most painful depression I cold have ever imagined. I immediately could not work and had to move in with my parents who along with many siblings and friends had to watch me 24/7 as I was so suicidal. I was eventually hospitalized. Getting through each day seemed truly unbearable and I knew I would surely die. I have been put on many many different SSRI's SNRI's Tricyclics, Mood stabilizers, anti psychotics, holistic meds, acupuncture and even a form of shock therapy called RTMS. I barely saw any improvement in my condition for a full year. It was decided I had treatment resistant depression and I spent nearly every moment in tears. Weeks after starting my newest round of medications (Seroquel & Nortryptaline) as a last ditch effort, I had my blood drawn for possible hormone imbalances and my Testosterone levels came back 200 ng/Dl and 150 ng/Dl. The average 25 year old male has 750 ng/Dl. With this discovery I for the first time had any type of possible explanation as to why I was not getting better and why I might be so so sick. The symptoms of such Low T are very similar to those of major depression. I started Testosterone replacement therapy soon after and have been checking in with the world and documenting my experience with treatment as well as giving my insight and perspective on various topics of mental health. I am blessed to say that I have slowly, over the last year and 10 months, been improving and becoming more stable which I never thought to be possible. My low T manifested itself in the form of Major depression, anxiety, and depersonalization/ derealization for over a year. Gaining some mental stability back is nothing short of a miracle as I was near death for what felt like forever. I do not consider myself to be totally healed yet but I am closer now then ever before and aim to use what I have been through to help or at least offer support to others in need I was able to successfully come off my Seroquel and Pamelor.

I work out all the time as a part of my mental health recovery!!! Weight training and all kinds of cardio rule much of my free time!

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Testosterone levels in men are highest between the ages of 20 and 30 years old, and then gradually decline by 1-3% per year. By age 50, testosterone levels may have decreased by 20-60% of their peak levels.

A range of symptoms can occur when testosterone levels drop. Low testosterone can cause a decrease in muscle mass, an increase in body fat, weaker bones, low energy levels [low battery], low sex drive, and erectile dysfunction. Low testosterone is even linked to pathologies that can cause death, like heart disease, cardiovascular disease, Alzheimer’s and Parkinson’s.

In recent years, more and more men are considering testosterone replacement therapy, which involves the use of an artificial or synthetic version of the hormone. The hormone can be applied using a topical gel, a skin patch, an implant, or most commonly, by injection. Although effective at raising testosterone, testosterone replacement therapy does have some serious drawbacks.

In men, more than 95% of testosterone is produced in the testes. The brain’s hypothalamus signals to the pituitary gland how much testosterone to produce, and the pituitary gland passes the message on to the testes.

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If testosterone therapy is ceased, it’s possible that testosterone levels and sperm production could return to normal levels. However, recovery may be highly symptomatic and prolonged. In some cases, testicular function may never return. That’s why doctors view testosterone replacement therapy as a lifelong commitment that should be carefully considered prior to treatment.

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My name is Noah and on May 18 2011, I had a rare reaction to a vaccine called VIVITROL and consequently spiraled into a major, agitated, suicidal depression with depersonalization. I lost 25 lbs in 4 weeks and was in full panic or near panic for 8 weeks straight mixed with the darkest most painful depression I cold have ever imagined. I immediately could not work and had to move in with my parents who along with many siblings and friends had to watch me 24/7 as I was so suicidal. I was eventually hospitalized. Getting through each day seemed truly unbearable and I knew I would surely die. I have been put on many many different SSRI's SNRI's Tricyclics, Mood stabilizers, anti psychotics, holistic meds, acupuncture and even a form of shock therapy called RTMS. I barely saw any improvement in my condition for a full year. It was decided I had treatment resistant depression and I spent nearly every moment in tears. Weeks after starting my newest round of medications (Seroquel & Nortryptaline) as a last ditch effort, I had my blood drawn for possible hormone imbalances and my Testosterone levels came back 200 ng/Dl and 150 ng/Dl. The average 25 year old male has 750 ng/Dl. With this discovery I for the first time had any type of possible explanation as to why I was not getting better and why I might be so so sick. The symptoms of such Low T are very similar to those of major depression. I started Testosterone replacement therapy soon after and have been checking in with the world and documenting my experience with treatment as well as giving my insight and perspective on various topics of mental health. I am blessed to say that I have slowly, over the last year and 10 months, been improving and becoming more stable which I never thought to be possible. My low T manifested itself in the form of Major depression, anxiety, and depersonalization/ derealization for over a year. Gaining some mental stability back is nothing short of a miracle as I was near death for what felt like forever. I do not consider myself to be totally healed yet but I am closer now then ever before and aim to use what I have been through to help or at least offer support to others in need I was able to successfully come off my Seroquel and Pamelor.

I work out all the time as a part of my mental health recovery!!! Weight training and all kinds of cardio rule much of my free time!

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Men with type 2 diabetes should not attempt to raise testosterone levels with androstenedione. This popular supplement is proven to raise testosterone levels… but in women. One study found that taking no more than 300 mg of this supplement a day, might raise testosterone levels in older men. Unfortunately a similar dose raises estrogen levels in younger men. This is a supplement that men with type 2 diabetes are probably better off leaving alone.

When carefully questioned, approximately 50 per cent of males with type 2 diabetes will admit to difficulty with their sexual function. This difficulty usually shows itself in the form of erectile dysfunction, which is the inability to have or sustain an erection that is sufficient for intercourse. Reasons besides insufficient production of the hormone testosterone include:

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In this video you'll discover 5 scientifically proven ways to increase your testosterone levels naturally.

Video Summary:
The data supports that if your testosterone levels are within the normal range 270 to 1070 ng/dL you won't see much difference in terms of building muscle or burning extra fat.

However outside of the normal range, near zero or very high and you see differences.

Bottom like is that worrying about raising your testosterone levels 15-30% means very little.

Raise it 300% and there's a difference but this can only be accomplished with testosterone replacement therapy which is out of the scope of natural bodybuilding and fitness modeling.

1 – Prevent deficiencies in Zinc and Vitamin D.

– This 1996 study found that men with normal T levels avoided getting zinc for 5 months in their diet experienced a drop in total T of more than 50%.

Zinc deficiencies can can also result in a down regulation of thyroid to the point where energy expenditure is substantially reduced

In this study, one subject increased their resting metabolic rate by 194 kcals after 4 months of supplementing with zinc, and the other subject increased RMR by 527 kcals after supplementing with zinc for 2 months.

You can get Zinc with supplementation or food.

Through food the best ways to get Zinc are: seafood, red meat like beef and lamb and pumpkin seeds.

– Vitamin D

Daily supplementation of 2000 – 3000 IU year-round can increase testosterone up to 25%.

Studies:

Vitamin D supplementation is especially important if your climate and lifestyle lack sun exposure.

2 – Get Lean and Stay Within The Range of 8 – 15% Body Fat

Testosterone is converted to estrogen in your body fat cells (via Aromatization) and losing fat may decrease conversion.

Strong association between serum levels of leptin and testosterone in men

Some people might have lowered testosterone if they try to maintain very low body fat levels year-round.

Ideally if you wanna be lean throughout the year you need to find the lowest amount of body fat that is sustainable for you.

3 – Take Diet Breaks And Avoiding Dieting For Too long

– Evidence-based recommendations for natural bodybuilding contest preparation: nutrition and supplementation

In a one year case study of a natural competitive bodybuilder, testosterone levels fell to 1/4 their baseline values three months into the six month preparation period. –

Levels then fully recovered three months into the six month recovery period.

4 – Manage Stress Levels and Overtraining

"When cortisol levels remain elevated, as is the case with so many people who are under constant stress, the ability to reproduce can suffer greatly," Josephs said. "However, these effects of cortisol in both men and women are reversed when stress levels go down."

Putting some stress-management processes in place will help you solve this. Taking some time off work and managing your stress through meditation is suggested.

Besides improving testosterone this will improve your mental focus and well-being.

Overtraining has been showing to severely decrease testosterone levels:

5 – Get 8+ Hours of Sleep

A study published in 2011 at the University of Chicago showed that men who averaged just 5 hours of sleep or less experienced a drop in testosterone levels of 10-15 percent.

Sleep loss lowers testosterone in healthy young men.

Bonus: 6 – Interact With Attractive Women

Be around attractive women and display power, perhaps have sex a lot.

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SOME OF MY STORY: 6 months ago I had my blood drawn and my Testosterone levels came back 200 ng/Dl and 150 ng/Dl. The average 25 year old male has 750 ng/Dl. I started Testosterone replacement therapy soon after and have been checking in with the world and documenting my experience with treatment. My low T manifested itself in the form of Major depression, anxiety, and depersonalization/ derealization for over a year. I am glad to report that I have experienced improvements in all areas and that is a miracle.

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My name is Noah and on May 18 2011, I had a rare reaction to a vaccine called VIVITROL and consequently spiraled into a major, agitated, suicidal depression with depersonalization. I lost 25 lbs in 4 weeks and was in full panic or near panic for 8 weeks straight mixed with the darkest most painful depression I cold have ever imagined. I immediately could not work and had to move in with my parents who along with many siblings and friends had to watch me 24/7 as I was so suicidal. I was eventually hospitalized. Getting through each day seemed truly unbearable and I knew I would surely die. I have been put on many many different SSRI's SNRI's Tricyclics, Mood stabilizers, anti psychotics, holistic meds, acupuncture and even a form of shock therapy called RTMS. I barely saw any improvement in my condition for a full year. It was decided I had treatment resistant depression and I spent nearly every moment in tears. Weeks after starting my newest round of medications (Seroquel & Nortryptaline) as a last ditch effort, I had my blood drawn for possible hormone imbalances and my Testosterone levels came back 200 ng/Dl and 150 ng/Dl. The average 25 year old male has 750 ng/Dl. With this discovery I for the first time had any type of possible explanation as to why I was not getting better and why I might be so so sick. The symptoms of such Low T are very similar to those of major depression. I started Testosterone replacement therapy soon after and have been checking in with the world and documenting my experience with treatment as well as giving my insight and perspective on various topics of mental health. I am blessed to say that I have slowly, over the last year and 10 months, been improving and becoming more stable which I never thought to be possible. My low T manifested itself in the form of Major depression, anxiety, and depersonalization/ derealization for over a year. Gaining some mental stability back is nothing short of a miracle as I was near death for what felt like forever. I do not consider myself to be totally healed yet but I am closer now then ever before and aim to use what I have been through to help or at least offer support to others in need I was able to successfully come off my Seroquel and Pamelor.

I work out all the time as a part of my mental health recovery!!! Weight training and all kinds of cardio rule much of my free time!

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My name is Noah and on May 18 2011, I had a rare reaction to a vaccine called VIVITROL and consequently spiraled into a major, agitated, suicidal depression with depersonalization. I lost 25 lbs in 4 weeks and was in full panic or near panic for 8 weeks straight mixed with the darkest most painful depression I cold have ever imagined. I immediately could not work and had to move in with my parents who along with many siblings and friends had to watch me 24/7 as I was so suicidal. I was eventually hospitalized. Getting through each day seemed truly unbearable and I knew I would surely die. I have been put on many many different SSRI's SNRI's Tricyclics, Mood stabilizers, anti psychotics, holistic meds, acupuncture and even a form of shock therapy called RTMS. I barely saw any improvement in my condition for a full year. It was decided I had treatment resistant depression and I spent nearly every moment in tears. Weeks after starting my newest round of medications (Seroquel & Nortryptaline) as a last ditch effort, I had my blood drawn for possible hormone imbalances and my Testosterone levels came back 200 ng/Dl and 150 ng/Dl. The average 25 year old male has 750 ng/Dl. With this discovery I for the first time had any type of possible explanation as to why I was not getting better and why I might be so so sick. The symptoms of such Low T are very similar to those of major depression. I started Testosterone replacement therapy soon after and have been checking in with the world and documenting my experience with treatment as well as giving my insight and perspective on various topics of mental health. I am blessed to say that I have slowly, over the last year and 10 months, been improving and becoming more stable which I never thought to be possible. My low T manifested itself in the form of Major depression, anxiety, and depersonalization/ derealization for over a year. Gaining some mental stability back is nothing short of a miracle as I was near death for what felt like forever. I do not consider myself to be totally healed yet but I am closer now then ever before and aim to use what I have been through to help or at least offer support to others in need I was able to successfully come off my Seroquel and Pamelor.

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I work out all the time as a part of my mental health recovery!!! Weight training and all kinds of cardio rule much of my free time!

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I work out all the time as a part of my mental health recovery!!! Weight training and all kinds of cardio rule much of my free time!

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I work out all the time as a part of my mental health recovery!!! Weight training and all kinds of cardio rule much of my free time!

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MY STORY

My name is Noah and on May 18 2011, I had a rare reaction to a vaccine called VIVITROL and consequently spiraled into a major, agitated, suicidal depression with depersonalization. I lost 25 lbs in 4 weeks and was in full panic or near panic for 8 weeks straight mixed with the darkest most painful depression I cold have ever imagined. I immediately could not work and had to move in with my parents who along with many siblings and friends had to watch me 24/7 as I was so suicidal. I was eventually hospitalized. Getting through each day seemed truly unbearable and I knew I would surely die. I have been put on many many different SSRI's SNRI's Tricyclics, Mood stabilizers, anti psychotics, holistic meds, acupuncture and even a form of shock therapy called RTMS. I barely saw any improvement in my condition for a full year. It was decided I had treatment resistant depression and I spent nearly every moment in tears. Weeks after starting my newest round of medications (Seroquel & Nortryptaline) as a last ditch effort, I had my blood drawn for possible hormone imbalances and my Testosterone levels came back 200 ng/Dl and 150 ng/Dl. The average 25 year old male has 750 ng/Dl. With this discovery I for the first time had any type of possible explanation as to why I was not getting better and why I might be so so sick. The symptoms of such Low T are very similar to those of major depression. I started Testosterone replacement therapy soon after and have been checking in with the world and documenting my experience with treatment as well as giving my insight and perspective on various topics of mental health. I am blessed to say that I have slowly, over the last 10 months, been improving and becoming more stable which I never thought to be possible. My low T manifested itself in the form of Major depression, anxiety, and depersonalization/ derealization for over a year. Gaining some mental stability back is nothing short of a miracle as I was near death for what felt like forever. I do not consider myself to be totally healed yet but I am closer now then ever before and aim to use what I have been through to help or at least offer support to others in need.